a lonely world

days pass.. sat was a boring day..

well.. i'd promise my fren to go marina bay meet them.. so i did.. i left home around 9.45pm.. meet my fren duno what time and we when to a pub.. (damn i hate smokey place) till 11.35 pm and then i took North-East line back home.. sat was a very tiring day.. hai~! walking alone at my home pasamalam area.. which onli a few shops are open. thinking that i wanted to eat "Mua chee" i took out my wallet found that i'd left $4.50 which i planned to buy "First" movie magazine.. so i head over the road to 7-11 and found nothing... -.-" so i walk towards another shop which sell "Mua chee" and bought a pack home.. (pathetic thou..) walking alone reaching home.. feeling lonely.. but no body will understand how it feels.. "as for my life is different frm others" anyway.. been yrs unattach.. really kinda will tired of this.. hope theres some one who cares.. nvm.. cut the night crap and skip to SUNDAY.

well.. Sunday woke up earli in the morning. damn its 7am hahaa.. i've slpt at 4.35am.. if u'd ask me why? i'll tell u.. i've no idea.. perhaps too tired and that these alot things came into my mind which i do not know what to say or do.

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as i woke up so earli was to go out with my bros.. John and Junrong.. Junrong came to fetch me.. and we when hiking in bukit timah hill again.. but this time round. we ran up the slop.. in stead of climbing the "STAIRS" of the forest.. hahaaa.. and then we came down by the "STAIRS" of the forest.. tiring but fun.. well.. after that .. we when for a fishball noodle. eww.. the new stall we tried.. QUE was so long.. but if for me to rate its taste.. its 3/10 man..

after that.. junrong send me home.. and i've took a nap.. but over slpt.. -.- plan to meet fren at 1pm i woke at 1.30pm anyway i've predicted that i'll be late. so at least i've inform my fren tat i'll be late. after changing and prepare.. i've took a cab. -.- and reach there by 2pm. clothings was.. "anything with red and white.." so i wore a long sleve red shirt and a white long pants..

i'd played a little badminton thou.. kinda fun thou i've not had much sweat. i do not know why do i love sweating out in sports.. perhaps i'm a sportsman type.. hahahaa. hm.. after the game.. i when to my fren's house.. its a condo. name "Gardens" at bishan there.. its directly opposite of "BISHAN PARK SEC SCHOOL" well.. i slpt on the sofa.. as the family members were around. so i must show some manners. hahaa.. too tired.. slp at around 3++ till 6pm and when out at 7pm to Marina bay. upon reaching there.. my fren and i were searching for my fren's CELL GROUP. as i know them too.. i go there greet them and then when to the open field alone watching FIRE WORKS..

fire works was really nice.. but i watch it alone... really feel lonely... many people where around.. but still feeling lonely... fire works starts.. (my first time ever watching a live fireworks i guess) but its definately a 1st time of watching it ALONE ALL ALONE.. laughter was nice.. "wow" been heard.. claps around.. the urge of seeing fire works was realli big as in i hope theres someone for me to hug and watch together.. (no one will really understand how it feels) i do not know how many lonesome people are like me watching it all alone.. but i guess what i saw there was. either the least was couples.. or GROUPS or family..

fireworks ends.. still fall into great emotion.. but what can i say? oh nvm.. who cares.. i'd walk alone after bidin a farewell to my fren and the cell grp people and left walking to the MRT. coz i need to meet Junrong at "CENTRO" to see our fren whos doing her "GRADUATION" ceremony of her studies of Hair Styling and designin and cutting and dying and what so ever.. what "TONY and BLAH.. i duno" after that.. i saw a few old frens.. chit chat a little and when eatting with junrong and her girlfriend at his house "joo seng" there.. the "BLOCK 1" Fishball noodle junrong says not bad.. so i'd when to try it out.. eventually its realli not bad.. but its a little too salty for me.. so i could onli rate it 6/10.

after eating.. bought a few "CHAR SHAO PAO" a type of Bun.. back home for my sister and mummy.. took a midnite cab home.. all alone suddenly feeling very lonely.. (always feels so when AROUND my house area at NIGHT) hai~! after bath.. i when to watch "THE THRUMAN SHOW" well 1st time watching it. but its last half of it.. its very touching and sad.. damn my emotions are getting me recently..

now this is where i am.. typing all my days spend.. i've no one to talk to.. but here to blog.. or to people that i might let him/her to read.

hai~!.. i realli tired of living.. seriously.. but not till an extend of dying.. thats too stupid if i'd think of that.. luckly i was'nt thinking of it.. hahahaa~! anyway.. what i meant of living.. was.. "being too lonely at most time" even in my camp.. i'm totally alone too.. not really when office hours.. but lonely when meal times.. eating alone. or not if night time.. i'm totally slping alone in my BUNK of 7 EMPTY beds.. life wasn't meant to be like that.. living as human.. 1 thing we all need was.. "LOVE" its true.. that we'll smile, cry, fight, etc.. for "LOVE" but then.. its "LOVE" that keeps us here.. and brighten up our day..

sorry to haf stop here.. anyway.. i know no one will be reading thou... so why for continue so much.. all i know was.. theres only 1 person reading.. coz i onli gave u my this blog site.. and to u only for now.. a nick for her that knows this was. "Snow Swift" well.. hope ya haf a really good day.. hope ya boyfren treats u well oh.. and stay happy always..

as for me.. i hope theres someone special.. that i'll love her and she'll love me too.. i dun wanna jus coz of anyone who loves me.. and i'll give her a chance even thou i know i'm not loving her yet.. what i wan was a "pure" even thou its childish to say.. "pure cute love" what to do.. lol.. i've yet got much relationships.. hai~! getting more tired.. i wanna slp..

nites to u.. and to all... wish everyone will have a fun and nice wk end.. and oh.. almost forgot.. happy national day.. happy national day to u too... "me, myself and i..." Derrick...