Yeah, i'm a fan of Jet Li. Thats why i'm consider fast in catching his shows. *Provided if i didn't do OT*
It's great today.
Its been a long time that i've not been watching shows with my bro. YESH!!!, my real life bro, my sibiling.
Anyway... Guess what!!! Before the movie starts, i bump onto my 2 best buds(almost lost in touch lo) LoL.
Lic and Nix... haha~! old friends le... eLo~! to ya both... ^^
Lic ar... u shocked me when u almost scream my nick out loud. I was like OMG... So many people were looking, like as if i'm a *.... nvm ...." =x hahaa~!
Was happy to see my old pals... Do catch up when we have time ya? ^^
Kind hearted souls and those who can be apart to help...
To all my friends or passerby who happens to see this, if its possible, i'd like to welcome those who're interested to join me for Blood donation.
Date: Either 22/09/07 or 23/09/07(Coming wkend Sat/Sun) Time: To be confirm Venue: Bloodbank@HSA located at 11 Outram Road [opposite Outram Park MRT Station].
Even if i know that i may be going alone, but i'll still post this just in case if anyone who're interested but don't know what to do about it or who're afraid to go alone.
Please drop me a tag msg to let me know, or how to even contact you if you're interested.
Sharing my experiences My first blood donation experience 3mths ago was a great and fullfilling one. It's painless to me.
Seriously, i don't feel a thing when they draw out the blood from me. As they'll first numb the particular area of your arms before they'll insert the "BIG" needle.
After finish blood donation. It feels really great. This is where i couldn't explain how great the feeling is to some. Maybe after you tried it out on your own, you'll get what i mean.
Oh, to those who're concern about the time it takes to donate and all...
Consider myself lucky, as that day wasn't so crowded. It only took me about 30mins or less to both registering and get my blood donated.
Some photos to share
Entering with fear.
Coming out with great accomplishment.
This is what you'll get. "Not sure if its everytime or for the first timer"
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Abstract Blood donation saves lives. This is a simple statement, yet it captures the altruism of donating blood. To donate blood, one must have a genuine, unselfish concern for others. It is all about helping fellow human beings when it matters most.
In fact, I am told that Singapore is amongst 39 countries where every drop of blood collected comes from voluntary unpaid donors. Of our 4 million residents, 1% donate blood . Of this 1%, one-third donate blood regularly, or 2 to 3 times a year. While this shows that blood donors are indeed a rare breed, it also shows that many more Singaporeans can come forward to donate blood. In order to ensure a constant and stable supply of safe blood to meet the needs of patients , we need more people to not just be aware of the importance of blood donation but also to come forward and donate blood regularly.
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I couldn't agree more to the abstract above. But i can only voice out one concern. I've friends who're interested, but not all who're interested can donate, and that they're people who have a genuine, unselfish concern for others too.
The Location & Operating hours Bloodbank@HSA is located at 11 Outram Road [opposite Outram Park MRT Station] [Beside SGH aka Singapore General Hospital].
The opening hours are as follows: Tuesday to Thursday : 9am - 6.30pm Friday : 9am - 8.00pm Saturday : 9am - 4.30pm Sunday : 9am - 2.00pm Mondays & public holidays : Closed
Well, since past few weeks been doing loads of OTs...
Music is the only thing that could ease our mind...
Past few days uploaded some songs into my Shuffle. Which, those songs i found... initially not belongs to me.
Well, after all the songs, I've got some very nice ones to share.
But i'll just share one today.
Hope you all will enjoy ya?
================================================= Celine Dion "To Love You More"
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Lyrics
TO LOVE YOU MORE (Celine Dion)
Take me back into the arms I love Need me like you did before Touch me once again And remember when There was no one that you wanted more
Don't go you know you will break my heart She won't love you like I will I'm the one who'll stay When she walks away And you know I'll be standing here still
I'll be waiting for you Here inside my heart I'm the one who wants to love you more Can you see I can give you Everything you need Let me be the one to love you more
See me as if you never knew Hold me so you can't let go Just believe in me I will make you see All the things that your heart needs to know
I'll be waiting for you Here inside my heart I'm the one who wants to love you more Can you see I can give you Everything you need Let me be the one to love you more
Some way all the love that we had (can be saved) Whatever it takes we'll find a way
Believe in me I will make you see All the things that your heart needs to know
I'll be waiting for you Here inside my heart I'm the one who wants to love you more Can you see I can give you Everything you need Let me be the one to love you more
NOT THAT I WANTED TO. BUT WHO THE HELL WANTS TO OT TILL SO LATE??? CRAP!!!
Anyway, i'm trying to plan my wkends for my family and friends. So, sacrifices had to be done... or so i guess...
Well... what do you know? work work work, ot ot ot... so carefree now... nobody cares... work till die also no one knows.
Gastric pain have been building up recently and all i do is drink water and milo.
I've never wanted this sorta carefree life before, i prefer curbs from someone special, at least tell me not to stay till so late, remember to eat, remember this and that... at least, i'll feel myself being cared/concern or even loved by that someone special.
After working so much OTs. I decided to put a pause to it. Its been a few days i've not really been doing OTs.
But, it just struck me today while i'm in my office. YES!!! Its Sunday, not Monday.
It came hard on me, asking myself again and again.
Why am i doing so much, why am i still trying so hard to push myself, why am i making myself so tired each and everyday? What is it that i'm fearing of? What is it that i really want? Why?
Been asking myself lots of Why and What, If and How.
I know i've blogged about it a few days ago. But this question just slap back on me, asking me,
"Are you sure you knew the answers to your questions already?"
I was like... Err... What?
But one thing for sure that i knew. I knew why this question slap back on me.
I was about to meet a friend for a movie today. But, knowing that my friend had been very buzy for weeks and was very tired, i slam a question to my friend.
Thats when after i send this text over, i realised i slapped myself.
"If you're tired, then rest la. Don't need to push yourself so much. Sometimes you must also ask yourself. Why do you push yourself so much? Just slow down your pace, take some time off to look around you and see whats missing. "
Only then, i realised my answers to my questions before, were not strong enough.
Hence, i stopped my work. Called up John and ask him to meet up for a dinner and pass him his overdue birthday gift before we call it a day.
At times, i do feel very lost. Its just like, you know the answer to what you're doing, but its that, we fear that it's not the right answer, and that also, you just need more evidence to strengthen it. Or perhaps, what if it's really wrong, How?
Well, if i were to be asked again, I could only answer, i'm not really sure, but perhaps i just need to carry on in order to find out the outcome.
So, have you all ever wonder why? Whats your story and how do you want it to be? Ask yourself this, and give yourself some time off to relax and look around. See if you're missing anything?
This time round. Broke my record again. OT till 3.30am
Anyway, i'll cut the crap. Got a few photos to share.
(Tues) Candid shot from Khai while i was taking a nap after office hour. Darn him, don't know how to take a better photo meh... "@#$%^&*" LoL~!
(Wed) CamWhoring while having lunchbreak.
LOOK!!! You've got panda eye... That's what my Project Engineer told me. -.-" But its not a bad compliment, she said. 'Cause she thanked me for staying up so late to do the project.
Haha~! Thanks for letting me know that i'm being appreciated. (Remember, you owe me a packet of Panda eye patch removal ah~! Hahaha~!! )
Once in a while, you've gotta be told that you're appreciated, so that you'll have a great balance in life ya know?
And also, thanks to my 1wk old cap. It's been a great companion ever since recent OTs.
As all my bad hair days gone, hidden under the cap. LoL~! 'Cause i wasn't been able to wake up extra early to wash my hair.
Ok la... Enough for today le... Gotta get some sleep for the next OT? -.-"
YAHHH~! Thats why i said, i just got back home from OT... -.-"
Well... recently its not the first time for me, nor my colleagues to do till between 1am to 4am, or even burnt our weekends to work.
Even thou there're lots of us not wanting our weekends to be burnt....
But still... We've no choice. We couldn't risk more time already. There're major projects that we'll need to rush on and its still not the worst yet...
MORE MAJOR PROJECTs coming on our way and has just started .
This is why our GM had to stepped in. Asking us to think of wanting to take either "Day or Night shift" permanently for 2mths.
Which means. Day : 830am - 9pm (OT's counted in) Night : 9pm - 830am. (OT's counted in)
As for me... Of cos i'll be taking DAY la.... -.- i got mylife and i need my life back loh.
Well... I'm now currently in a stituation which i do not really know what i'm doing.
As in, why for do so much OT? I've lost my aim a few months back. Loosing a target and an aim. But why still do so much and sleeping very little? It's not as if the time will turn back for me.
What i'm doing now, are all these worthy?
All i know now was, as long as i'm still healthy, alive and kicking, why not? And also, Carrer to a man is very important... At least work hard for now... Save $$$ for the rainy day.
Haha... Seems like i already know the answer to my question already.
Really must thank one of my colleague. He had hit over 200hrs of OT for the last mth... Which means he'll be getting back home an additional $2000+++ excluding his basic.
If not for him telling me. I won't be reminded on how much i've got on my payday a few months back. Thanks to him for bringing my morale back.
But still... At least all my friends out there reading this... tell me if it's worthy or not lo... I just want to hear more suggesstions, but dun complain i no time for you all la. I'll sure find time for you all de ok!
Anyway... I'm helping to look around on if there's anyone who knows how to use AutoCAD 2007 and is still looking for a job currently or looking for a part time job?
If do, pls drop me a tag or you could just email me your particulars and i'll let my HR to handle it.
Okie~! GOOD NIGHT ALL... or... Morning/Afternoon/Evening to all those who read this at a different timing... Haha~!
Recently i bought Linkin Park latest album. "Minutes to Midnight" Out of 12 tracks... i could say 80% of their songs are definately great. And yes!!! They are in my MP3.
Well... this also means that i'd rate 4/5 to their album "Minutes to Midnight"
But i'll just introduce 2 of their songs which i find it quite interesting.
"For Greater Hearings/Feelings, do blast it with your speakers or put on Earpiece"
Leave out all the rest
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Lyrics
I dreamed I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen 'Cause no one else cared.
After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shed but I'm me
I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed.
Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest.
Forgetting all the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well Pretending someone else can come And save me from myself I can't be who you are (I can't be who you are)
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Well, i personally quote out a few parts of their lyrics which i find it quite meaningful to share.
"What am I leaving, When I'm done here? So if you're asking me, I want you to know.
When my time comes, Forget the wrong that I've done. Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed and don't resent me.
When you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory and leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest.
Don't be afraid, I've taken my beating, I've shed, but I'm me. I'm strong on the surface, Not all the way through. I've never been perfect But neither have you."
After hearing and learning the lyrics... i then realised that this song actually meant like leaving down a will* to tell your love ones to help leave behind some reasons to miss you, and if they're feeling empty, just keep you in their memory.
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Shadow of the day
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I close both locks below the window I close both blinds and turn away Sometimes solutions aren't so simple Sometimes goodbye's the only way
And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you
Pink cards and flowers on your window Your friends all plead for you to stay Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple Sometimes goodbye's the only way
And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you
And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you
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For this "Shadow of the day" i personally find it another way round of the first one i've introduced. Its from this part:
Pink cards and flowers on your window Your friends all plead for you to stay Sometimes beginnings aren't so simple Sometimes goodbye's the only way
And the sun will set for you The sun will set for you And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey And the sun will set for you
Which made me felt as if, you're telling the person who had left us that, friends all had pleaded for you to stay, thou beginnings aren't so simple, but sometimes goodbye's the only way. "The sun will set for you and the shadow of the day will embrace the world in grey(shows to me that you'll always be remembered or missed)"
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Extra Bonus from me...
Hands held high
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"Hands held high" is one song which i only find 2 "F" words been read out.
Do check it out.
All the above 3 songs i've introduced... Were songs that i believed most listeners would most likely prefer to "Feel" when the Music flows. It consist of "Rock, Pop, Smooth" Genre feels.
Comparing their latest album with the past, it seems this one's more on the pessimistic side of life, or should i say, more onto the humane side, rather then hating the world...
Last but not least, did you remember to blast your speaker or put on earpiece to hear it?
Trust me, It sounds very different with a normal speaker compared to an Earpiece. (By the way, i'm using an iPod earpiece.)
After listening to all, It sure feels great for me... How about you?
What i've notice was, Changes were seen everywhere.
There are 2 IRs coming up soon, more Condos and new HDBs.
Look around us... you'll definately notice something new.
What i actually wanted to say was.
Everything around us are changing. For better or for worst. We'll never know.
Thats why, we need to make changes too. But, its all up to each individual.
As for me, I'm gonna make changes too. For better or for worst, i'll never know.
But, no matter what, i'll keep on trying. I'll keep on doing my best and will one day progress and improve eventually. So... As to lead a better life, a better future.
To my believes, there're no lousy people, but lazy people.
All the best to my friends. Hope you'll all progress too. ^_^
OMG... This movie i'll rate 4/5 popcorns in every prospect. Story plot, graphic and it's creativity.
All i can say was... It's worth the $ to watch on weekends.
Oh, and... I've seen quite a few changes in P.S. thats why i'd like to share the idea of "Changes". btw, for B.K. Lovers check out the *newly* opened Burger King just beside Action City.
Got to know new friends today... WeiNa, Ruoling and Andre (LoL, Andre sounds like a girl's name. Don't whack me ah. =X haha~!)
You guys were fun to be with. Thanks for being around.
Last but not least, thanks to JunHui for introducing a bunch of fun loving and down to earth friends to me.
Was recently buzying with loads of OTs. Weekend burned coz of OTs too. Haha!!!
Anyway,
Today...
OT as usual. But, while walking towards my engineer desk to put a drawing, i looked back at all the empty seats of my colleagues, and i chance upon a pinned up note.
I remember that, more then a month ago, Evelyn told me to walk over to read this note.
Coz, at that period of time when i'm down, when i don't even need to say a thing. My colleagues all knew something was wrong.
My never ending smiles, my cheerfulness and energy had all gone...
Thats when almost all my colleagues who're close, came approaching me one by one, day by day, asking me the same qns...
"Hey Derrick，你OK吗? 这几天你瘦了很多，会不会是工作还是压力的关系?"
I replied: 是吗?
Colleagues: 你这几天真的瘦的很夸张也很不健康吧，有运动吗?
I said: No. i'm fine, thanks.
I'd never wanted to be pity by anyone. But its because they've been very persistant and kept asking me for more then a month. So, i broke it out to them.
They, showered me concern and asked me to join them for lunch, as i'm always seen eating alone most of the time, locking myself in my little world.
And today, after reading the pinned up note at Eve's Desk.
I remembered asking her to Type it out to me. Coz its not bad.
But to be frank, at that period of time, nothing seems to gets into my mind.
So i pretend to understand and showed greatfulness when she want me to read it.
But after reading it twice today. Words finally gets in.
*Listen, I know it's hard to believe people when they say "i know how you feel..." But i actually know how you feel...
What i'm trying to say is, I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.
And how it can actually ache in places that you didn't know you had inside you.
It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get or gyms you join Or how many glasses of Chardonnay you drink with your friends.
You still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong, or how you could have misunderstood.
And how in the hell, for that moment, you could think that you were happy? And sometimes you even convince yourself that she'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long "all that" may be. You'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted will eventually begin to fade.*
Abstracted from the movie "The Holiday"
Thou its abstracted from a movie.
I find it very good. Especially after understanding it now.
Thanks again Evelyn. If you're reading this. ^_^
So i wondered, does any of you understands it too?
Really very greatful to having a bunch of caring colleagues.
Of coz not forgetting my Family and Friends out there. ^_^
BEEN BREAKING DOWN AND BROKEN DOWN INTO PIECES WHICH WILL TAKE ME LIKE DON'T KNOW HOW LONG TO RECOVER.
WHY IS IT SO FUCKED UP, I CAN'T BELIEVE WHY I KEPT DOING THIS TO MYSELF. WHATS WRONG WITH ME?
I'M GOING INSANE IF I KEPT THINKING ABOUT IT.
WHY AM I STILL SO STUBBORN.
WHAT AM I? A NO USE BLOODY HELL? A FREAKING LOUSY PERSON?
I REALLY NEVER KNOW HOW HARD IT COULD BE TO LET GO OF THE PAST. NEVER...
WHY AM I SO CONCERNED STILL? I COULD JUST LEAD MY OWN LIFE. OTHERS GOT THEIR FREEDOM. WHY MUST I CARE SO MUCH ABOUT IT.
BEEN ALWAYS ASKING MYSELF EVERYDAY ON WHAT I REALLY WANTED AND AM I REALLY HAPPY? IS SHE DOING FINE? IS SHE OK? IS SHE HAPPY? WILL SHE BE BULLIED? DOES SHE THINKS OF ME?
Well... basically, i went KBox with JR and his friends.
Its been long since i've last sang.
Me and JR.
JR and friends.
Well... After singing... both JR and i actually said, its kinda really bored, as in no much feel in singing and all agreed... So, we actually said perhaps we'll not be singing till after some time.
On Thursday, after my OT i went to meet up with Ling, as we've since last met each other while i'm serving the country at Marina Bay 2yrs ago.
Hah!!!
She invited me to...
Our Singapore's National Museum
The under part of the DOME inside National Museum.
Soo... What's the big deal? why there? and how come at Night?
all because there's an event at the "Muse Bar"
An event from Louis Vuitton. For peeps who don't know whats "ARENA". Its a Magazine.
Some celebrities turned up. Loads of pictures were taken here and there.
But well, i guess its from the Photographer. Haha~! guess she's gotta do what she's odd to do. Its her job, maybe for the mag or something else.
Anyway... Suprisingly, I was not the only one my friend asked to join her, Ling eventually asked Lydia aka Diya 陈迪雅 to join us too...
Diya and me.
To describe her... I'll say she's very friendly, down to earth person.
Supposingly, Ling and i took lots of photos, but it all turn out very bad.
For Example~!
The only best i could get, other then the close up above. was...
Ling, Diya & me
As mentioned... not so good right. But Ling very smart, she left her name card to the photographer and asked her to contact ling or send email to ling, of our photos. (A Semi-Pro Camera instead of our weak Cam Phone)
So, i guess, i can say that there might or might not be more photos to update!!! hurhur~!
After dinner, we went KBox. LoL~! (2x) Kbox 2days in a row.
But this time round... it all turn up to be very good. Not like the night before, when its kinda bored. Haha~!
Both Ling and Diya sang really well, and also not forgetting Carrie, who last joined us for less then an hour or so. She has a very powerful vocal. Thats no wonder why both Diya and Carrie got into the Women's final in Project Superstar II.(All the best in their carrer)
