Thank you Chief...

Finally got a Name-Stand for my desk after a year + of work. Haha~!


^^

Well... It all started with me... Joining the company where i'm working at now...


My Chief and i (She's a cheerful and a patient chief/lady)

Was first being interviewed by my chief and hence... Working under her for more then a year... Not many have the privilege's and honor working with/under her... She treated us with care and absorb all the blames for us.

I could still clearly remember the first day when i was working. I'm just like a baby. Knowing only very very basics of AutoCAD. And now... She had groom me into knowing almost every shortcut keys and THE MAGIC of AutoCAD.

Been through alot of problems and troubles together with my colleagues and her. Without her... We're not who we are today.

All of us from the IR team. "Wishing you all the best."

Friday will be her last day working together with us. And yes... She's Quitting after 12yrs in this company. Perhaps resign and be a good wife and *mother soon*? Be waiting for good news from you ya?

Haha~! Time flies...

Thank you Yatti. You're the best Chief and Teacher to me. Do take care ya? ^^

Technology...

Well, What do we know?

We're always very buzy.
Recently what happens around us we don't really know.

Look at the Technology now that is booming around the world.

People Still make discovery...

Below, there're 3 Vids to share it to all. Of which, 2 are inventions.

What i can say was. The last video shows.
How well his technology can really grow, as Saltwater are all around us.

Enjoy...

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Can water Burn?



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Burning Water For Fuel



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Saltwater Burns



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My Cute Doggie...

Junior Cookie~!


Prof Cookie~!

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My Lovely Dog... Always Jumps around and jump onto me when i'm back home from work.
He's Never endless energy always Fills me up ^^.

But he sure waits patiently for me to Pet him whenever i'm home. ^^
Maybe that explain's how he got his energy... Haha~!

How...

Edited... Darn... Hate it when something happen to Youtube. It'll just keep loading and make my blog lag.

Listen to their Sound effects or What they have said. Its Kinda Hilarious.

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How to Survive an Alien Attack



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How Saving Private Ryan Should Have Ended



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How Se7en Should Have Ended



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The Arena

Was Out with JR and his colleagues to "The ARENA" Last Night.

Was treated to "Long Island Tea"

All i can say was... THE TASTE SUXs...
Thanks to the Birthday drink ya... -.-"

Great songs... Sorry, Blame it on me.

Original Music Video Updated!!!

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Akon - Sorry, Blame it on me



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I Love the Music... How about you?

流沙

To Guest:

Thanks... I've found the song le...
I like the ending verse...

"有什么放不下。。。断感情要潇洒"

Heres the video... I'm uploading David Tao's one too... Both very nice.
Lyric's included in video. So, Enjoy... ^^

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容祖兒 - 流沙



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陶喆 - 流沙



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我太傻了

一直以为你还爱我。
所以还很痴情的，还抱着希望。期望你会从新的在接受我。

谢谢你给我的生日礼物。不说可能你也不知。
就算是做梦而已，你的微笑，拥抱和吻。我都感觉到很真实很温暖。

我现在只能祝福你。诚心诚意的祝福你。
希望你真的能够找到你要的快乐。

我的感受。。。

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王力宏 - 第一个清晨



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Lyrics

光投进爱 把梦刷白
舍不得你会醒过来
不要现在 昨夜走太快哦
说不上来 隐隐藏在胸口一块
吻你脸颊
证明此刻真的存在

*是你让我相信爱对我慷慨 hey oh
是爱我们是注定不是意外

**这是爱 我们的爱
还不确定却好实在
把你贴在胸怀 静静的代替表白
才不愿放开
这是爱 给你的爱
没名字却停不下来
在忐忑里期待
雀跃中想到未来是你我才明白
这就是爱

但梦还在
小心不让你醒过来
也许现在
就是永恒的未来
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第一个我们的清晨
迷人和默契都是你的
无限可能
言语都显得太肤浅
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王力宏 - 你不在



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Lyrics

当世界只剩下这床头灯
你那边是早晨已经出门
我侧身感到你在转身
无数陌生人正在等下一个绿灯
一再错身彼此脆弱的时分
如果渴望一个吻的余温
我关了灯黑暗把我拼吞
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白般难挨 哦。。。
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤在偷偷好起来
但你不在不在
时间再按下许多次快门
沉默里听见转动的秒针
一个人吃饭这个凌晨
孤单一人份
你低声说你有别人
我的话筒只有自己的体温
怎样认真也不一定成真
你说的对我不得不承认
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
无尽等待像独白的难挨 哦。。。
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
我受了伤再偷偷好起来但你不在
那些摇摆我都明白都明白
但你不在爱已不在不在
你不在当我最需要爱你却不在
一个人分饰两角的恋爱
你不在高兴还是悲哀你都不在
像空气般不存在的存在
再没有痕迹的爱你不在
当我需要你的爱你不在

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我的感受。

Entertainment 2...

Just for Etertainment...

So... Sit back, relax and enjoy the clips...

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David Blaine Street Magic Part 2



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After Viewing my previous post of the "1st David Blaine Youtube Edition" This second one really kick ass. Haha~!

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Ok Go... Here it goes.



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Imagine the new Era's MTV is changing into Threadmill + Dance? How fun could it be?
Hahaa~! Infact... They are really the real band group to did it with... Hahaa~! Pls tell me that i'm wrong...

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Terminator is Back...



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Titanic 2



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Convincing? Sure it does for some... But... Ask me... I'll tell you the answer.

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Terminator Vs RoboCop



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Battle of the Robots...

Sunday... Stupid me...

It's just another day...

Fever, headache & flu. Gone.
Resting at home... Recovering myself. As i'm left with bad cough and flem*
(Yucks.. Totally hating it when i'm coughing.)

Well... I couldn't help myself but loving the sun.
So, I went jogging alone at the stadium just nearby my house.

I know that it can be fatal. Knowing that i'm sick, and i'm not suppose to do such a strenuous exercise. Especially knowing that Cough + Flem can be of a worst combination or condition to Jogging or running.

I know this is stupid. Knowing that no one cares much about me now. But I just did it.

Feeling very stupid now... Because my condition got worsen... Now i'm wondering, how am i to sleep with such almost non-stop coughing with flem. Argh...
(Should have really rest. Darn...)

I...

Can't sleep...

Been tearing the whole night after reading...

i...

Thank you all truely...

Knowing that...
- John himself been very buzy with his work and reservist.
- JunRong himself buzy working.
- I'm very down and not feeling well and stay home alone doing nothing but watching tv.

You bros still cared & concern about me. And asked me out for Dinner.


Cam-Whoring while waiting for JR to meet me.
(Ehh... Its just a necklace & I'm still a Free-thinker ^^)


Juliana took a photo of our legs. As John says... " Don't take a picture of my face la. My eyes very small today coz of not enough sleep la." Haha~!


But still... Here we are... From right: Junrong(My Girlfriend), me & John(My Boyfriend). LoL~!


My little birthday cake. From: JR & his girlfriend. And John & his girlfriend.


Singing along together my birthday song.


Too late... I've made my wished. A Happy me...


Gift from JR & Ju.


Tadaaa~! It's a shirt... and it fits me just nice. Thank you both JR & Ju.

John said he'll pass me mine as he's currently very tied up. Doing his reservist now.

Poor John had to stay in. But bro... its ok la. I'm already very happy that you managed to bookout and come celebrate my birthday together. Thank you & your girlfriend both for celebrating my birthday together with JR & Ju. ^^

We all dine in @ Marina Square's Spaghetti. Was Busy chatting. So... Totally forgot to take the photos of our meals.

It's been a year since we've 3 gathered together ya? I can still remember the last time we've gathered was on my birthday BBQ last year.

Been friends and brothers for 7 years. Teenagers to Adults.
And each and everyone of us are all busy with our own stuffs now...

The above photo was the first photo taken together for like more then 3~5 years?
Time really flies man... Really cherish our friendship & brothership alot.

Almost cried when you guys presents me a surprise cake.
(You guys reminds me of the time when i'm not alone. As in... In my heart)

Thank you all for asking me out to celebrate my birthday together.
Love you guys so much...
(Ehh... I'm straight hor... Don't anyhow think think ar...)

祝我生日快乐

祝我生日快乐


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Lyrics:

我知道伤心不能改变什么
那么让我诚实一点
诚实难免有不能控制的宣泄
只有关上了门不必理谁
一个人坐在空的包厢里面
手机让它休息一夜
难,想切割切掉回忆的画面
眼泪不能流过十二点
生日快乐
我对自己说
蜡烛点了
寂寞亮了
生日快乐
泪也融了
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你带一点恨
还要时间
才能平衡
热恋伤痕
画面重生
祝我生日快乐

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Actually... I do have lots to say... But... I really don't know how.

This week really passes by very terribly. Feeling very down, on top of that, I fall sick.
I rejected the MC given by my doctor. As my engineers needed me alot to tender project urgently.
I know that they felt bad when they knew i'm running a fever and yet i have to stayed OverTime for them.

Almost did something really very foolish to myself. Luckily i'm not brave enough.
(I miss you...)

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去年的今天，我在你的怀抱里，温暖里。
但今年的今天，却没有了你。

在这段时间里。没有你，我真的过得很辛苦。

想着想着，我们也成长了不少，也成熟多了吧。

在这里，我很想说。

在我的爱情字典里，相爱，就是要有信任，接受与配合。
我只不过想好好的爱一个人，也好好的被她爱。
就这么简单而已，真的，真的那么简单。

Question.

Is FaceBook the latest and newest thing in town?

I'm in...

You?
(Add me if you're in)

Finally... Even thou i don't want/need it.

I'm finally down with Fever, Cough, Cold, Headache... etc.
Those common flu, fever thingy... You name it... I've got it...

All come in a bundle with no discount hahaa~!

Guess its because of all the late nights still up ba...

Just got home from OT anyway. Was suppose to stay till even later. But i'm "burning" hot.

Still alive and kicking... So, here i am BLOGGING!!! =.="

"How you lead your life is up to you... Enjoy it..."

My New Found Love~!

Weee~! this is my new love... hurhur~!

Its a birthday gift from me to myself. ^_^

But of coz.. I must thank my mummy too...
If its not for my mom, i won't be getting it at an almost 30% discount rate.

So very much in love with it.
Been looking for a suitable watch for months le... Now, i finally got it.

All i know was that, this watch is semi-automated + batteried. Which means, most of the time when i wore it, it'll wind up when there's motion and it'll last for DAYS* Even if i don't wear it. How many days? i don't know.

The sales personal told me that, if i wanted more details, I can check it out online...
But this model is still not out on the website yet. I only manage to grab hold of it in the shop.
Guess i could only check out the details online after sometime ba... =.="
(Be reading the manual first)

But now... All i can say was... Being able to keep track on the time is very important to me.
And i'm Loving it totally.

Entertainment for peeps who're feeling bored... ^_^

Evolution of Dance



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David Blaine Street Magic: YouTube Edition!



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Funny Magic Trick - Barry and Stuart



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Sometimes its great to be entertained...
And I love being entertained at times, Most of the time... ^_^

Quiz~!

You Are An ESFJ

The Caregiver You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first. A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change. You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project. You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people. In love, you value harmony and mutual understanding. You will apologize or give someone the benefit of the doubt, if it means getting over a fight sooner. At work, you are good at building relationships and connecting with people. You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher. How you see yourself: Organized, dependable, co-operative When other people don't get you, they see you as: Opinionated, critical, and know-it-all

What's Your Personality Type?

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Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

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You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right? But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

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You Should Play the Piano

You are a true music aficionado who loves many musical style and eras. You find music to be an escape. And you'd like to be relaxed and comfortable when you're making it. You're very innovative, and you have a unique way of knowing what may sound beautiful. There's a strong possibility that you could compose some of your own work songs quite easily. While you have a lot of creative energy, you are also serious and conscientious. Your musical talent needs time, practice, and lots of privacy to flourish. Your dominant personality characteristic: your painstaking attention to detail Your secondary personality characteristic: your natural tendency to be whimsical

What Musical Instrument Should You Play?

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Your Aura is Yellow

You're a deeply happy and content person, and you enjoy sharing your cheer with others. While you may seem like a simple optimist, there is a lot of thinking going on inside you. The purpose of your life: bringing joy and a better life to others Famous yellows include: Conan O'Brien, Jenny Mccarthy, Jim Carrey Careers for you to try: Athlete, Actor, Yoga Instructor

What Color Is Your Aura?

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You Are 76% Gentleman

You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners. Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices!

Are You A Gentleman?

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You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How Scary Are You?

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You Are Destined to Be Thin

Even if you aren't thin right now, you have great habits that will ensure you're thin for most of your life. You have a great relationship with food and eating. Don't change a thing.

Are You Destined To Be Overweight?

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You are 73% Libra

How Libra Are You?

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You Are A Good Friend

You're always willing to listen Or lend a shoulder to cry on You're there through thick and thin Many people consider you their "best friend"!

What Kind of Friend Are You?

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You Are an Optimist

You definitely see the sunny side of life, even when things aren't going so great. And while you may not be a realist, your optimism has really improved your quality of life. You have the energy to take charge, solve your problems, and enjoy life for what it is. Optimists are happier and healthier - so keep thinking positive!

Are You An Optimist or Pessimist?

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You Are Midnight

You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits. Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle. Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it. You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.

What Time Of Day Are You?

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Your Japanese Name Is...

Hoshi Genji

What's your Japanese Name?

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Your French Name is:

Quennell Boulanger

What's Your French Name?

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Heya peeps... Try these out, true/false is up to you to decide.
But basically... Just have fun la... Haha~! ^^

OMG... I've occupied my time by doing so much quiz. Haha~! I had fun...

Emotion kicks in but...

-No OT for today.
-Mom and dad out to work.
-Sis and bro out with friends.
-Friends not available for me.
-Watched 3 DVDs(Movies) in a row.
-Played and *Sayang* my puppy till he's tired to accompany me.
-No one/friends online to talk with.
-Tried occupying my time by playing games but i've yet touch any... not even a sec. As i don't feel like it.
-Suddenly, mind starts to think freely.
-Felt very lonely.
-Finally, emotion starts kicking in. As i felt very lost and empty.

First friend online to talk with... Priscilla and i was being ticked off by her.

Guess, i really need to be ticked off at times.
As, i've lots of caring and concern friends talk to me nicely with very meaninful words.
But, never too harsh like what Priscilla did.

Its like, she shook me up from a dream, Slap me on my face and poured ice cold water onto my face and screamed... "WAKE UPPP!!!"

Her words of wisdom...
"Whats yours is yours",
"Sometimes, its better not to know the truth then asking so much why, as it might be hurting",
"She doesn't even care how you feel already, why do you even care so much about how she is now?",
"Pain is inevitable."

and the list goes on...

YES! I know. What she said was true. "Pain is inevitable" and i have to overcome it. Or not, how can i handle my future?

I don't deny, i've always tried to be there for my friends telling them all sorts of helpful/meanful words.

But look at me... I can't even help myself, so... How am i suppose to help others?

I don't deny this fact that, sometimes we do need help too, especially when we fell too hard and too deep. That's when we'll need a helping hand to pull us through... The help from people around us.

Thank you Priscilla.

This wake up call was like a direct spear piercing through my heart.
A straight and a powerful one.
(But... Ouch... that really hurts...)

Thank you...

06 Oct Sentosa Outing

Photos Updated!!!


From Left... Dawson, me and Brina.
Centre Front... Eve's Bf and Eve.
Centre Back... Jiawang and Weirong
To Right... Guankiat and Yuling


The Only Couples


Eve (My Colleague) & Dawson (Mr ManHunt2007)


Dawson, Jiawang & his poor foot.

JW got an "Almost 2x50Cent" Size of a piece of skin sliced off underneath is feet.
All i know was, Eve and Dawson was chasing JW and the next thing we know was... Accident happens. That was only after JW himself showed us his wound. *yuCkz..Gross*

This explains why we should not run around on the beaches without any footware protected.


The Guys (Missing Jw as he's with the medic)


The Ladies


Before the Games


Battle of the sexes


The Ladies Team...

Erm... I can explain why Dawson is in the ladies team. He self declared that he got an "A"Cup and so, he's in the ladies team. *HAHA~!*


The Guys Team


Sandwich (Our Lunch)


Me... Roasted!!!

We all had fun and of coz we got roasted too.
Event was a successful one. (Cheers)

Credits:
The organisers are Weirong and Brina.
Sandwiches were made by Weirong.
Eve and Dawson(Mr ManHunt2007*) Invited me. LoL~!

Last but not least, Jiawang did his best joining us in beach sports as much as he could. Cause' He got himself injured before all games begun. But not forgetting, he did a great job taking photos of us while we're in the sea. Thanks bro.

Out to Sentosa~!

All the above picture shows, oneside of the Sentosa's "Newly" under construction's IR. aka Integrated Resort.







The Sunset of the day before we leave Sentosa!!! With Different shots from my phone's Function.

And Finally, Caught hold of this...

Closest to "ON THE SPOT REALLIFE EYE IMAGE" (What you really see)

And i totally love it... Loving my phone more and more!!! Even if its more then a year old. My Motorola V3x still impresses me. =P

It's like Life...
When 2 lovers after being together for sometime or long, don't feel boring... As you'll never know what good he/she'll will be of you. (It actually applies to all "Family & Friends" and not just to Lovers only)

Well... A good way to say is... There's more then just meets the eye. If still don't understand? You'll eventually get it one day.

Thats all for today...
Still Pending for the remaining pictures my friend took.

Songs~!

張玉華 & 李圣杰 《是你决定我的伤心》



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Lyrics Included...

Enjoy~!

Try this!!!

Try this "Imagini.net"

When you link on, a series of about 12 pictures will come up. Click
on a photo in that category, and just continue to keep picking the pics
that appeal to you after reading the category.

At the end of it. It will give you a profile of yourself ... and it is fairly
accurate!

From there, Righttop corner got a "Sign out" button. Don't click it! If you wanna register. If you do, 4th button frm the right. Click to proceed on. If you find your nick is not nick. Don't activate yet. "SEE & READ" the screen and you can "Re-register" as many times in "ONE" Email.

"To see how it looks like... Scroll to the very bottom of this page and you'll be able to see my Visual DNA Results"

Relatively a good day...

WooHoo...

Just got back home from OT...

Checked my email and guess what?

Dear Derrick

M&M’s® Mystery of the Missing M&M's Dark Chocolate Winner

Congratulations!

You are one of the lucky winners of our “M&M’s ® Mystery of the Missing M&M's Dark Chocolate” promotion and have won yourself the:

Limited Edition M&M’s ® Messenger Bag
1 x Pack of M&M Dark Chocolate

LoL~! First time winning M&M's goodies... Even thou that i'm not in the top 3, but at least i'm in the top 20 which it isn't that bad la...

"M&M's" one of my fave chocolate.

Anyway, i got a few not bad Vids/Clips to share with ya all.

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Geckos in Love


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You're Beautiful (I'm Beautiful)


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Well.. both vids/clips i intro are funny.

But, "You're Beautiful (I'm Beautiful)" will sure set your funny bone to the ground laughing your ass off.

Damn... That was really a good one. Hahaha~!

Hope ya all will enjoy it...

愛*轉角

Sharing with all, a very nice song... Enjoy~!
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羅志祥 - 愛*轉角


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歌词: Lyrics


我伪装著 不露痕迹的
想在你身边 静静的陪著看着天边
骑著单车 往前行进著
某个路口 爱在等著

你往前走 不回头看了
记忆的笑脸 缓缓的敲著我的琴键
我不舍得 让你孤单单的
我爱你的 心牵挂著

心不再拼命躲 不去害怕结果
假设有个以后 你会怎么说
一直想跟你说 幸福不再溜走
下个路口 你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

心不再拼命躲 不去害怕结果
假设有个以后 你会怎么说
一直想跟你说 幸福不再溜走
下个路口 你会看见爱
有美丽笑容

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
也许陌生到了解 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

爱转角遇见了谁 是否有爱情的美
爱转角以后的街 能不能有我来陪
爱转角遇见了谁 是否不让你流泪
奖寂寞孤单作废 让我来当你的谁
我不让爱掉眼泪 不让你掉眼泪
现在永远 你就是我 就是我的美

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Expressing... Letting it out!!!

1st Oct... Children's Day.

To me... Just for today, i wanna express myself.

Today, is the first day of my month and I'm in a lost.
I really hope i can move on soon. I have to let go.

I admit that i've not been very truthful to myself.

Everytime when friends approached me, asked me, "how are you? or better now?"
I'd say i'm fine or even ok.

But the fact was... Most of the time. "NO". Its because, at times, I'm still wandering in my past, dreaming of all those moments and how i wish that day didn't happen.

This explains why i'm always doing so much OTs.
Not because i really wanted it nor desprate for money...
But because i wish to occupy all my time, so that i won't have any spare time or strength to think about the past.
And so, i could just get back home very tired, bath and sleep to rest myself for the next day.

Tears filled my eyes, but i have to hold on and be strong.

I told myself, i wish to have friends around me on my bday, but i've also been telling myself, i wanna be alone.
Not because i wanted it. But because my heart is empty.
No matter how much friends i had, how fun they are, or came into my life. The pain will still lingers around.

Letting go of the past is not easy. It really needs alot of courage to let it go,
and I thought, i've already let go. But why does my tears kept pushing me?

I got only just 1 wish, 1 truthful wish from the very bottom of my heart.

I wish that she'll be there for me. Just be there with me to celebrate my birthday one last time. Before i could really move on.
I want to hear from her and to understand what really goes wrong and what happened so wrong?
I thought it'll be the best present i'll ever recieve. But i thought so again that, that day will never come.

I used to think alot... and its just a process of the mind.
I loved with all my heart, because i have one.
But, to be loved is a process from the soul.

And i wonder, how can a broken soul move on when it's not even healing? or Perhaps it heals way too slowly...

Does anyone truely loved a person that you'd sacrifice everything or anything?

I just don't know how long it will take for a broken soul to recover or to move on. and now, i don't wish to think about it anymore.

All i know was, i'm a changed person now. No longer the past childish me.
I'm very grateful and thankful knowing her.
I've learn alot from her too.

Most precious lesson ever learnt was "how to love and be loved."

Knowing that fate had brought us together and do us apart.

For this, i could only wish her...

All the best, take care and thank you.